Self-loathing smokers hate themselves (ashtray)
It's ok, even smokers hate smokers. They even hate themselves for
being hapless addicts.
Posted by: Ignorance_is_Bliss | January 10, 2007 12:14 PM
As a self loathing smoker, I think this is a great idea. I was initially
against banning smoking in resturants and bars, but after a recent trip to
Vegas, it was even harder to breathe.
It's a difference you can only tell after a while of experiencing it.
Now as a Californian, stepping outside for a smoke isn't as chilling an idea
as being someplace where it snows.
Smoking in workplaces is a uneeded distraction.
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Smokers suffer from self-loathing?
To the Editor:
I can't help but be bewildered at the number of students who smoke. I am
forced to ask myself, "Why do so many people persist in participating in
such an obviously stupid activity?" The answer I have come up with will no
doubt make me a marked man among the slaves of the nicotine culture, but I
believe it may have the unpopular merit of being true.
It seems to me that anyone who would voluntarily pay for a product that is
guaranteed to reduce their life span and quality must hate themselves in
some fundamental way. Anyone who has seen someone dying of cancer or
respiratory ailments can't possibly wish that fate upon themselves if they
are confident and happy in life.
Bedsides self-loathing, smokers have underdeveloped social skills. I make
this statement because the majority of smokers begin the habit under the
influence of peer pressure, or in order to rebel against their parents.
Even though nicotine is medically habit-forming, I still believe it takes a
certain weakness of character to become addicted to anything. By being a
smoker, you join an international society that makes socialization easier.
You don't have to rely on charm or conversational skill - you simply
approach a fellow nicotine zombie and open a conversation with an inane,
"Got a light?" or "Can I bum a smoke?" This kind of lazy and empty
fraternity seems somewhat sad to me.
Cheap thrills and easy friends seem, to me, to be inadequate justification.
Do yourself a favour, learn to respect yourself and drop the disgusting
habit.
William Fleury
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Confessions of a Former Self-Loathing Nicotine Junkie
A few months ago, I celebrated one whole decade without a cigarette. It was
a big deal. I should have thrown myself a party. Something. But I figured
that the people who love me wouldn't be inclined to celebrate me not doing
something I never should have been doing in the first place.
Smoking is bad. And I hated myself to the core for doing it.
People who know me in real life can't believe that I used to smoke. I guess
I just don't look or seem like a smoker. But it's true ... I was among the
foulest of the foul ... and there were witnesses, too. I wasn't one of those
social smokers who light one up once in awhile to accompany a ****tail. (I
wish.) I'm the kind who smoked two between the time the ****tail was ordered
and put in front of me. I smoked four on the way to the bar ... and that was
after stopping at the convenient store to pick up another couple of packs
for the evening.
Nicotine junkie. That's what I was. Nothing social about it.
I was the kind of smoker who lit one up within a minute of getting out of
bed in the morning and last thing before slipping back in it at night. I
kept an ashtray on my nightstand.
I was the kind of smoker who would gather change from the car floor to buy a
new pack.
I was the kind of smoker who would go through the car ashtray PRAYING for a
long butt when there wasn't enough change for a new pack.
I was the kind of smoker who made a nuisance of herself bumming cigs off of
others when there were no long butts in the car ashtray.
I was the kind of smoker who ... desperately needed help.
Like so many stupid kids, I started smoking when I was a senior in high
school. It was Sue L.'s fault with her pandering of Marlb0r0 Lights. It also
didn't help that I came from a long line of smokers on both sides of the
family. My parents were a-okay with me smoking in the house. They were
smokers and I was 18 by then. I thought they were being very cool. Over the
years, my habit only got worse.
I can't tell you how many times I tried to quit.
Gum? I could chew it and smoke at the same time. (Did I mention I needed
help?)
Patch? Close but no cigar!
Hypnosis? Worked for about 24 hours.
Everytime I failed, I hated myself even more.
What saved me was marrying Dan, a non-smoker. He never gave me a hard time
about smoking. But he did reach the point where he asked me not to smoke in
the house. Frankly, he didn't ask as much as he insisted. I was so ashamed,
at that point, that I quit. Cold turkey. With the help of infinite rolls of
Breath Savers. Wintergreen. I will remember (and bless) that flavor for as
long as I live.
That first year was a full year of living hell. Every single day I had to
tell myself no about a million times. Cigarettes and smokers were
everywhere, beckoning me to join. Suddenly, I didn't even want to talk to
anyone on the telephone, because the cravings would be so intense. All of my
routines had to change. After dinner, I would have to lie down and cry
because the yearning was overwhelming. I literally grieved for a smoke. This
was long before someone had the good sense to recommend prescribing
anti-depressants to quitters. I had to go it alone. No matter how bad I
felt, I knew the answer had to be no. No to "just this once" ... no to "just
one more" ... no to "but there's always tomorrow." It had to be no today.
Every day.
Ten years later, here I am.
Why am I confessing all of this now? Because, maybe, you are reading this
and you are a self-loathing nicotine junkie too. You feel like you can never
quit. Ever. So why bother, right? Please trust me on this ... if I can do
it, you can too. There is no perfect time to quit. You will never be 100%
ready. That's how the addiction works. But it can be done. It can be
overcome. So don't give up on yourself. Just do it.
I'm here if you need me.
http://www.juloftheday.com/mt/archives/2005/08/confessions_of.html
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