nolegirl323

Okay, quickie on me..

Had ana/bulimia for 12 years, ( mostly bulimic, but on and off anorexia
since age 11, I'm 24). I put on lbs b/c that was the stage of my ED
that I was at.. The story of my life is going up and down. I have
clothes ranging in all sizes.. I felt/ feel F A T!!!

Anyways, recently I graduated from college, broke up with a guy who I
dated for 3 years, and moved to another city to start a relatively
stressful career. (I work in some capacity of law enforcement). So I
guess I freaked and went back to the only life I know.. starving for
days and days and then rewarding myself with a day of b/p.. Spending
all kinds of money, embarrassing myself at all-u-can-eat buffets, and
destroying my kitchen with the inevitable evidence of a massive
glutton-fest..
So I've dropped enough weight that people notice, but for the last
week, despite the fact that I haven't b/p in over a week and have been
working out everyday and restricting A LOT, the number on the scale
hasn't changed in a week..
W T F??? I am so frustrated !

Can anybody else relate to this???

I know that I shouldn't be trying to sink further down, but its all i
know right now and its really all that I can think of as sick as it
is..


help..
ng323