creativepain

Firstly, before I even start this, I want to make an apology. I want to
apologise to the whole group. I have been off on one somewhat lately and it
has really been coming out in the way I have been posting to the group. I
have been in serious pain and serious stress. I know that is no excuse at
all, but it is something of the reason. I hope I haven't upset people too
much. I feel like a real shit over it. I'll try and engage brain before
posting in future.....

On to the subject of this post. The post/s from Hidden at the end of last
week were from me. I was just too damn scared to admit that at the time.
It was a rough week and I just needed some time to get my head around
things.

I came home on Sunday and have had a friend staying since then to keep me
company. He is going tomorrow and I will be alone for the first time since
it happened. Its a really scary thought.

On a slightly better note I have been to the GP today and she agrees that my
pain is too much for anyone to deal with and has started me on slow release
morphine to see if that helps. Hopefully it will be good for me, and give
me a break from so much pain continually.

Anyway, I'm a mess mentally and physically at the moment, and I'm not sure
what response to expect to this post so I'm going to leave it there.

Ali

--
"Flatter me and I may not believe you. Criticise me and I may not like you.
Ignore me and I may not f****ve you. Encourage me and I will not forget
you." -William Arthur Ward-


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pète

Hi Ali,

I assume what you wrote as 'Hidden' was real. In that case you do not
have to appologise to me.

Sometimes we all need someone to listen even if we don't know how to
say things clearly.

I'm glad your back posting as yourself.

Love n Hugs


Pete

awake@sun.rise
Not A Real Address

creativepain

The stuff I posted as Hidden was real. I was apologising for the posts I
made before I went away when things were getting heated and I was being a
real twat....

Ali


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Thanks for your openness. And that quote at the end.

pète

Hi Ali,

Sorry. I must have misread.

Eitherway. I still want to send you a hug.

<<<<<<<A L I>>>>>>>>>>

Pete

awake@sun.rise
Not A Real Address

high~priestess

Hi Ali


((((((((((massive hugs))))))))))))

creativepain

Thanks all for the replies. I appreciate them..

Ali

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Ignore me and I may not f****ve you. Encourage me and I will not forget
you." -William Arthur Ward-


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velvet

Hey there sweetie,

be safe tonight. Don't worry about hurting us - sometimes the pain is too
much to tell of it to people directly.

Glad you got some morphine from the doc - its good stuff. A close friend of
mine is forced to live on the stuff because of her health, but it relieves
the pain. Just try to keep the dosage as low as you can - its very
addictive, and easy to get used to, which means you'll have to up the dose
to cope with new outbursts of pain.

Thinking of you, hun. If it hurts too much to stay up, just go to sleep
early. Sometimes its the only thing that helps...

(((((((((((((((((((Ali)))))))))))))))))

Velvet