katokirk

Um, all of that pretty much explains how I feel some days. My sister announced
her engagement to the family on July 28th. They've been dating for 8 years,
just like my husband & I did. Now they are getting married this October. I am
OK with that, a little fast for my liking but anyway, I feel like it was a way
to get the attention away from me and back to her. I was getting attention
because of my miscarriage. I could be totally wrong, but that's what I am
feeling. So I'm going to try to push my feelings aside at least until Oct.
15th, get them married, and then continue on with what's going on in my life.
When this miscarriage happened to me I went to my sisters house to talk and
look for some support. Well, out of the 4 hours I was there, we talked about
me for about 15 minutes. My sisters world revolves around her and she couldn't
find it in her heart to just sit and talk or just hug me. She talked all about
things going on in her life and which friends she was going to have over their
house for their 4th of July picnic. So, I have this added stress to my life,
along with all the other day to day life stresses. I wanted support from my
family, but it's looking like they are all about my sister and I'll have to
find support elsewhere. Sorry, I didn't mean to make this so personal and
mostly off topic.

Kirsten & Sean
^8^ guardian angel
6-30-04