No I wouldn't feel a failure if there was something wrong with the car. But it's because I'm
with me all the time, it always feels like it's my fault. I'm thinking horrible thoughs (mainly
about being a room with it raining and thundering outside) - not scary to other people, but
makes me sick to the pit of my stomach. This is where the doc said it could be "Pure O" because
I keep thinking about it all day every day. But it's me that's thinking about it, and I've
dealt with it on my own up to now. I'm a perfectionist - and this is beyond me being
perfect......... When I write it down it seems so trivial, but feels horrible.
I've made another appointment to see the doc on Tuesday and I'm going to discuss a change of
meds. I've only been on the Prozac for a week - but I can't deal with the axiety that comes
with it (happened to me before, but I persevered.......) I don't just want to put up with it
now, I want to deal with it and get over it.
I know first hand how good it is to get over it, done it twice, but each crash feels like the
one that I'm going to be stuck with

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