jonboy42

I want to thank you all for your kind thoughts and prayers. I got the
results from the CT/PET scan today. They were not as bad as I'd feared
but the news was not good.

They say there is mild hypermetabolic activity in the interiormost
aspect of the pelvis (I take that to mean peritonial cavity) and also
same within range of the rectom area, and some diffuse hypermetabolic
activity in the sigmiod colon which is the opposite side from where the
original tumor was found.

So to put it in laymen's terms, sounds like I'm plum eat up with it. I
was initially told I'd be on FOLFOX7 for 6 months but today the doctor
said she was adding avastin to the regiment and adding 6 more months of
chemo for a total of 10 months which I don't know if I can bear as weak
as this stuff makes me.

She says no hope for cure or remission but with luck may be able to keep
me alive for 3-5 years of 6 months on and 6 months off chemo. She'll
prolly make enough off me to pay for kid's college.
I'm not sure if I want to commit to such a long stint of chemo or not
as sick as this stuff makes me or even if I could physically endure it.,
Especially if the outcome is eventual death so I have to think on this
hard. Although it sounds better han the 6 months to live without chemo
or 18-24 with chemo that they said in the begining, it still is bleak.

Maybe I'd be better off just forgetting it and enjoying whatever time
the lord gives me rather than being forever sick with this chemo mess, I
don't know I have to think hard on this.