gracebyluv

it is very sad. it's been about a year since my husband left and about 4
months since the divorce. The hardest thng is finances which I expected to be
a problem.

I heard his voice yesterday and it almost broke my heart all over again. I
know, everyone knows this was inevitable.

There was a guy that I use to talk to from the old
alt.support.depression. He was the first person to be kind to me and care a
little bit. He got fed up with me though, because I couldn't seem to do what
was needed to be done and that was break away from the relationship. He also
didn't like that I was too nice to people that probably didn't deserve the
benefit of the doubt. Anyway, I think about him a lot and wonder what he's up
too. I kind of wish he knew that I'm now divorced. The thing about groups
like this is that when you lose touch with someone - you wonder even more if
they are okay and what happened to them.

I feel so sad. I realize I haven't really moved beyond the tragedy. I
thought I did - I thought I was doing well. I had a friend who helped to
soften the blow and the impact. But now I realize that I am still just alone.
My biggest fear. I'm the kind of person who needs someone to love and hopes
for the love in return.

I feel like I will never get to be happy. Some part of me wants my
ex-husband to be struck by some magical transformation and suddenly realize
that it's me he loves and appreciates. But I don't think I could go back
there cause I can't go back to living how I was. And besides it would never
happen anyway.

It's a scary feeling. I'm not tough like a lot of women, and I'm scared
if I ever get that opportunity that I will make the wrong decision based on my
feelings about being alone instead of whether I love the person or not.

It's nothing I guess. Just lonliness.

Grace

cynthiaaandrews

{{{{ Grace }}}}} my heart aches for you. I know my mother misses my father
very much (he passed away 6 years ago)
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doughnut

Thinking of you, my friend

((((((((((((Grace))))))))))))

Love and warmth,

Doughnut

Girdle your grummits, rollock your fussits, tether your nadgers and plight
your cordwangle - ramblin syd rumpo

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ricki

{{{{{{{{Grace}}}}}}}

i'm very sad for you

i wish i had comforting words for you; i am
searching for the right words to make you
feel better and feel completely inadequate.

i know it's normal to feel sad about your situation with
your ex, and it's normal to feel sad about losing contact
with people we once knew, but that doesn't make it
any easier.

my prayers are with you, girl.

love,
Ricki


How do "do not walk on grass" signs get there?

mesecke

{{{hugs}}}

Sorry I don't have time to write more at this moment.
Up to my eyeballs in Pre-Cal. This semester is wearing
me down.

Calgon take me away!

Myron

gracebyluv

mmm, my ex-husband is such a wonderful thoughtful man. He was able to wipe
out that heartache in no time like it didn't even exist and all he had to do
was be his normal bastardly self. Wasn't that sweet of him?

Grace
...

spartacus

The hardest thing is always finances... If I had money, I would expect
people
would then listen to me cuz then I would be considered all supreme! Isn't
that
always the way? If you're rich, then people think what you say is gospel...
I'm
here for you anyway!


I however, would not brake your heart, unless I was the one who did, and I
might be...
If it was me, sorry! I don't like being considered as a frump. However, I do love you!

I'm OK and lots has happened to me... I hope you mean me cuz I have a crush on you!

Then you must be my kind of person Grace! LOL! I mean, I've always thought
of you
as so sweet! And I know I'm probably not wrong about that...

Good... Cuz what's done is done. You can't make things happen that never
have or
were ever meant to on their own. And that's what love's all about... If you
have to tell
someone how to love, then they'll always look to you for the way. And you
don't want
your own redition... No surprises there...

You would know either way... Is it something that works for you? If it is,
then
you must be in love...

However, you're not meant to be without. That's not how people are meant to
be. Even
business types look for love eventually. Sounds like me... And I've always
found you
vulnerable to pain, perhaps empty promises... Been there! That's not what
you need...
Anyway Grace, I'll be back... I have to hand over my computer cuz it didn't
come back
how I want it and as you are, there's a demand for satisfaction :-) I'll
stay in touch just
the same. I've not forgotten you!

gracebyluv

As always, you are so sweet and adorable.

I hope you are feeling better now than the last time we talked.

in faith,

Grace
...
...
When God sends the dawn, He sends it for all. - Cervantes

Nothing can bring you peace but yourself. Waldo Emerson.

spartacus

Well, half of my nose doesn't work now so I try to always face west...
Thanxs for asking! I'm feeling much better as usual :-) Luv ya Grace!