none

I think I got LJBF'd last night. Hurts, especially because it was one of
the only girls I ever met I really could connect with. Then again, her
bag of issues is even bigger than mine and she's under a heavy work load
at the moment so I wouldn't have seen her very often anyhow. The LJBF is
one thing, its implications are much much worse: if not even a girl like
her, who truly understands how I feel feels like I'd be a match for her,
then no girl ever will. I don't feel too bad at the moment as after
crying for a few minutes, I popped a load of Ativan (2 or 3mg, can't
remember) which still is working slightly. OTOH I should have known
better than to get interested in her in first place but HTF is one gonna
stop that if the girl is at least an 8 and nice, very smart and
understanding and seems to take an honest interest, too?

FWIW the coincidende of having to go to the university for the first
time today doesn't seem very nice, either.

imjustone

What was the deal?

Was there another man? It helps when you shift the blame to other people.

kitznegari

none said:





*hug*

- k i t z -
"mmmMAYLMAYLMAL, mMAYLMAYLMAAAH!" -billy corgan
http://spinning_plates.tripod.com

data888

That sucks. All the girls I really connected with and then got
interested in LJBF'd me. It hurts for a while, but eventually the pain
dulls. Except this last girl. It's been months and it still hurts a lot.
Just gotta keep trying, I guess.

none

Now it's fading off and I start to feel the pain again. Life can't go on
this way.

insert pseudonym here

How is this news? I seem to remember in your first message you told us
she wouldn't let anyone (even her own mum) touch her, and she wasn't
interested in dating. The tone of the message was that you'd been LJBFed
from the get go, but that you were fine with that because she was easy on
the eyes and you understood each other better than almost anyone else.

kitznegari

none said:


send me an email, none... i'd like to keep you company so you don't feel like
this

- k i t z -
"mmmMAYLMAYLMAL, mMAYLMAYLMAAAH!" -billy corgan
http://spinning_plates.tripod.com

none

Seeing that my newsserver is somehow fucked today I'll reply to myself
als I'm to lazy to go signup for Google Account. Anyhow, no, there's no
other guy involved. She seems little interested in any guys at all and
in fact sent another to hell just a few days ago (and didn't even want
to stay friends with him as far as she told but that might change). I'm
still convinced that it would help her greatly to fall in love with a
nice guy, tho. I think it's thrice burnt, nine times shy or something
along that line applies there. In a way, she seems completely asexual at
the moment (gorgeous and smart but no sex in over a year?) and trying to
get her own life sorted as good as she can. I don't think she's playing
any games or anything with me, BTW, as the only thing which she has ever
asked for (and only very recently) is whether I got a clue about the
math stuff she should be learning (well aside of her truly bad time
management but under the given circumstances, that's mostly excusable)
but didn't really ask whether I could explain it to her.

I doubt that she knows herself what she really wants. She freely admits
that she should go back to therapy about two or three things but is very
relunctant to do so. I think in a way it's about control in various
forms, as long as she doesn't let anyone in her life, she mostly has
control over it on the emotional side. Since I didn't tell her just how
I like her (that's something to be done face to face, not in an email),
she probably isn't aware of what she said either.

Rather dumbed down (explaining the actual exchange would probably take
one page or more), she asked whether my intention was to sleep with her
(but the question had a very negative connotation). I replied that I'm
certainly not looking for a one night stand but on the other hand
wouldn't mind to find out how it feels to wake up next to a girl I
actually like for more than just her looks (unlike what I've done in the
past).

Then again, I really should have known better than to get so attracted
to her. I mean physically, she's downright gorgeous but most people
would probably run away (just like in my case) once they get to know her
inside but to me, she's about the only person I ever met I felt was
understanding me and more important, she didn't ever try to blame me for
the way I am or give me stupid advice. She very well knows that most
guys would probably dump her the morning after and thus is wary of what
she does (which is a good thing).

I think I'll have to meet her face to face ASAP and explain her how I
feel. But if she got issues with taking it further, I won't shy away
from her cause even if it will hurt, she's a truly special person I most
certainly would want just for friends, too.

snowboarder

I don't see here any implication. She LJBFs you not because of who you
are, but because of the state she is in. (According to what you say).
She would have LJBFed any other guy.
Therefore, you just cannot conclude anything about you from that.

loner nail ber

I don't feel too bad at the moment as after

Now it's fading off and I start to feel the pain again. Life can't go on
this way.

Ok, let me get this straight...

You're smart enough to get a good job.

http://tinyurl.com/ro4r

In fact, you've got a great job.

http://tinyurl.com/ro4s

You are afflicted with excess intelligence (poor soul), and you are worthy
of 'drop dead gorgeous girls'.

http://tinyurl.com/ro4v

You have a lot of friends.

http://tinyurl.com/ro51

Five at least.

http://tinyurl.com/ro53

And have been to parties with these friends.

http://tinyurl.com/ro54

You have slept with numerous girls.

http://tinyurl.com/ro56

And during one of these conquests at least one has complemented you on
having a big dick.

http://tinyurl.com/ro57

You have your drug habit funded.

http://tinyurl.com/ro58

So you can pop a pill everytime you face a minor drawback. (See top)

You're still young. Just because a potential girlfriend didn't work out
quite the way you wanted, it's not some great tragedy. Stop being so fucking
melodramatic.

http://tinyurl.com/ro77 Nothing to pity there as far as I can see. I could
have done with looking like that when I was debasing myself with complete
monstrosities. If only you could see how I have been humiliated, and how
embarrassing it is just to be me. You've no right to complain. I don't
swallow the happy pills and threaten suicide, and I ENVY you.

There's plenty of people I know who are in their thirties and are living on
their own. One still lives with his parents. From what I've read, you've got
everything going for you. Good job, friends and at least women give you the
time of day, so it's a start.

You also said:

wouldn't mind to find out how it feels to wake up next to a girl I
actually like for more than just her looks (unlike what I've done in the
past).

- You poor thing, you've only been able to get women you are sexually
attracted to.
Life is so so cruel.