ben

Hello,
Last Jan.9 2004 my mother lost her battle with leukemia.
She was only 49 years old, she was diagnosed with it on Dec.27 2002 she had
one of the more aggressive subtypes AML ( Acute Myleoid) I watched her
wither up and die suffering from immense pain. I am 28 and sometimes people
would mistake my mom as being my older sister she was really young looking.
But near the end it was like someone took our beautiful, vibrant, and young
mother and replaced her with a old frail woman. Leukemia is horrible it
robbed me of enjoying the rest of my life with my mother, she will never see
me get married or play with any grand children, she didnt even get a chance
to see me graduate from college. I wouldnt want another family to go through
what my family went through. The only solace i can take from this is knowing
that i had my time with her, talking about good times, laughing at jokes,
crying about letting go, apologizing for past differences. I got to do all
these things plus telling my mother i loved her every night i feel lucky and
grateful for that. But i still feel sadness and emptiness everyday. I watch
people who live "normally" and never have to deal with this take a lot of
things for granted and i think i used to be one of them. I will never be
that way again.