virtual goddess / laughing wolf

(A tip 'o the hat to SofT for the thread "Statically charged and seeking
demagnification," cuz it got us thinking...)

Life has been realllllly interesting of late. Our wonderful t'pist is
moving to a private practice, and for now I won't be able to afford her
private rates, even at a sliding scale. Once things smooth out financially,
I will gladly pay the higher fees. But for now, I'm kinda flying solo,
since it seems stupid to find a new intern and then do the excruciating
process of explaining how my system works, etc.

I'm awaiting a decision from Kemper insurance regarding my Long-Term
Disability claim - an appeal on their earlier denial. They had covered me
under the Short-Term Disability coverage, and then invoked the pre-existing
condition clause to deny my initial LTD claim. I've got a bunch of really
solid proof to refute the pre-existing condition clause, plus up-to-date
information from my (former) t'pist and docs and clinics that have treated
me, all do***enting my inability to function in any kind of "linear"
position.

I talked yesterday with the Appeals Coordinator at Kemper, and she confirmed
she'd received everything I said was coming. She was actually rather warm
(a nice change), and commented that it looked quite complete. She said she
was working on it, and so I didn't press, and merely told her to let me know
if she had any follow-up questions or required any additional do***entation.
I am doing my level best to stay relatively calm, knowing that the situation
is now out of my hands.

Social Security has turned me down on my first application, and I have about
a month left in which I can submit my appeal. I am waiting to get copies of
the file, which Social Security will only release to my former t'pist, not
to me directly. Carla (my t'pist) has been getting her now office space set
up, so I haven't pressed her for a mailing address this week. But it's
gotta happen next week, so I'll need to follow up.

Meanwhile, I'm enjoying my classes in Earth-based spir*tuality. It's the
one time during the week when I feel truly balanced and calm. That's
undoubtedly because I'm co-conscious with my inner shaman / native elder,
Wise One. She's incredibly strong in her spir*tual practices, and it is she
who has the gifts of sight and healing.

In the last couple of months, as I've done work with Carla (t'pist), we
brought a bunch of stuff closer to the surface, and Carla got a chance to
interact directly with at least one of my inner littles. This has resulted
in the stored ~memories & their emotions~ to rise closer to the surface.
I've always been told I have a "powerful" presence, but it seems to be even
more pronounced at this point.

Coinciding with this emotional work, some weird kinda energy stuff has been
going on. My microwave is going completely mental - but only when ~I~ use
it. Starts, loses power completely for a fraction of a second, starts back
up, goes for a few seconds, loses power completely, starts, etc. When I
point directly at it, the cycle seems to stop.

Interestingly, the clock above the microwave was acting really strange. Put
a new battery in, and it didn't seem to make any difference. So, tossed the
clock, and put another one up (it was working fine in the bedroom), and made
sure a new battery was in it. Guess what? It doesn't work either.

The CD stereo in the bedroom is also attuned to whatever-the-heck this thing
is, because it turns itself on (power), and starts playing CD's. Or, if
there are no CD's in, I'll come in to find "no CD" on the digital display.
This, on a stereo I ~know~ I turned off. It's done this a couple times when
I haven't even been home, but I was able later to confirm that the timing
coincided almost exactly with some work or discussion that involved the
littles.

I have read about poltergeist activity, and I understand that it's often
caused by pre-adolescent or adolescent females, and the powerful mental and
physical energies moving through them as they enter this time of enormous
change in their lives. I wonder if maybe I'm seeing something like this,
but based on the littles "perceived" ages.

Any thoughts? I do try to do grounding work, and I'm trying to get back to
yoga, too. I figure getting grounded in the body and calming the mind has
to be a good thing, whatever the cause of this odd energy.

If you have thoughts or suggestions, send 'em my way...

Thanks,

Joanne (and a buncha others)
of Virtual Goddess continuum / Laughing Wolf tribe

e-mail: laughing_wolf"at"earthlink"dot"net

jill

One funny and one serious observation.

Try unplugging stuff before you leave the house and if you come back
to find it either plugged back in or still doing weird things,
run!

Seriously, I'd have your wiring checked (the house, _not_ you. Are
the stereo and the microwave on the same circuit? Close to each
other in the box? The wires in the wall near each other? On the same
side of the box? These are all technical reasons for this to happen.
If there is a short somewhere there can be arcing and the problem
will seem to travel in weird ways. Also, keep in mind that just
because it doesn't seem logical to you the place may be wired oddly.
I once lived somewhere that was wired very oddly but it made sense.
The point was to make sure that no room lost all power if one
circuit went. So one circuit took care of half the living room and
half the kitchen. If that one popped the microwave and tv went but
not the frig or living room lights.

Once we had a problem in that house with corrosion on something in
the electrical box. It turned out we had two separate wires coming
into the house (a left and a right side) and there was something
wrong with the connection on the left side. So our house acted quite
strangely just because the electricity to the left side of the box
was coming and going.

My mom's house was also really odd. She had fewer circuits than she
should have for modern stuff so when various things turned on/off
other appliances acted oddly. For example, when her old washer went
into the spin cycle her kitchen lights would dim and her tv would
turn off. She had someone come out and put in more circuits!
Unless you are really good with stuff like this I'd suggest you get
an electrician to check it out

Rainbow Colors (Jill)

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jill@tuells.org

virtual goddess / laughing wolf

Heh. Loved your facetious first suggestion - although I'm not sure I ~want~
to know if things would be plugged in and/or still doing weird things!

Your input about the more mundane possible causes is very much appreciated.
Everybody in the family, including me, has come to the assumption that it is
~my~ fault. I can even hear my 19-year-old daughter in the kitchen
sometimes, trying to make microwave popcorn, and hearing the microwave
off-and-on beeping sounds, and then Jen (my daughter) yelling, "Mom!!! Would
you stop it!?"

Isn't it weird how those of us who are DID tend to assume that nearly
everything is our fault? Of course, the timing on most of these weird
energy happenings just happens to coincide with stuff being stirred up
within my system, particularly the littles. And I'm a believer in the
theory that "there are no coincidences."

Actually, what I should probably do is check in with my teacher and mentor
(within my spir*tual studies) and see what they have to say. I suddenly
remembered this afternoon the aura photo I had done by this great guy that
my teacher knows. I had it done in March of this year, I think. My aura is
enormous, and it's deep and pure green all around me, topped by intense pure
golden light. When my teacher and my mentor saw this picture, they were
absolutely stunned. I guess it's supposed to mean I'm meant to be a healer,
even if it only means healing myself.

I can send you a copy of the aura picture, scanned and annotated, if it's of
any interest. Otherwise, we now return to our regularly scheduled chaos...


Joanne and a buncha others