31st July 09:43
What is happening? *trigger* (depression)
The fact that i went off my pills cos the mh worker i saw at my mh
centre said i should do more probably hasn't help.It pissed me off that
some twat from a mh centre that repeatedly ignored my cries for help
and support re Brenda thought i should do more.Heck what more can you
do then struggle to cope with your own illness and your wife's month
after month with sod all help.
In my head i knew it was a dodgy move-went off meds cos of mh centres
negstive attitude before and moods went haywire.However i went into
'you think i should do more when i have done more than many would have
done'' equals 'you think i am a fake'' equals 'you must be right cos
you all think you're God equals 'if i'm a fake **** the meds! mode.
One good thing Brenda is back home and doing ok.Had social worker round
yesterday-surprise! surprise! she was ok.I suppose a non depressive
type person would person say i shouldn't be feeling negative but most
people here know that depression etc is not necessarily event congruous.