28th March 22:42
Feeling lonely and sad---my whole family has moved to the other coast (shy job)
am nearing middle age and am still unmarried and geographically
unhappy living on this coast, though i am compelled to b/c i couldn't
find a job on my preferred coast. A couple years ago, I drove across
the country in a cloud of bitterness that still has not lifted, b/c I
had to work.
Now my retired parents and my siblings (the last one just moved) all
live on the other coast, where they are enjoying the beneficient
weather and scenery that I adored. I was in college and graduate
school there for a very long time, but being shy and maladept at
self-promotion, I could not play the greasy, networking game of
scoring a job that would keep on that coast.
Now, besides being friendless and furiously discontented at the
ugliness, crowding, and shitty climate of this coast, I have no
immediate family within 2,000 miles. And no job to catapult me to the
coast where i deserve to live.