12th July 06:50
Just too much (dissociation)
The really nice thing about dissociation is that if you
use it and survive you are able to use it later. Plus, if you lived
through it once you can live through it now. You are bigger,
stronger, more understanding, etc. Plus, it is NOT happening now so
all you have to deal with is memories, not the actual stuff.
All of that said, in my experience, I did not have to remember
everything to heal. I needed enough to 'get it' and enough to believe
it (although even that was pretty iffy for a long time). From then on,
the rest of it could be sort of glossed over. I did need to get the
emotions and reactions and all of that but the actual 'what happened
and when and whom and all that', nope. Obviously your mileage may vary
but at least that is how it worked for me.
Rainbow Colors (Jill)
The colors blend, the edges soften. Swirling and mixing
we are becoming white light.