Dave 2009-05-10 09:07:03
I never said it was ok to hit a kid …
And Im still saying you shouldnt hit your parents.
Just get yourself out of this, Im sure you can do it without hitting anyone
Indigo moon ma 2009-05-10 09:07:12
Hitting your parents isn’t taking control of anything. It’s more along the
lines of losing control. And maybe it’s not the rest of the world that is
the problem. Maybe you need to look at what your definition of support is
rather than complaining about a lack of it in here. You post some pretty
inflammatory and triggering things in here so naturally you are going to
get some negative reactions to it. Take a good close look at the man in
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% 2009-05-10 13:57:14
hey , i understood , i even asked if i could take a shot at her too
Dakitty 2009-05-10 13:57:37
maybe it’s your constant snippy negative attitude that makes it very hard on
people to feel sympathy for you.
And when they see you be nasty to your parents, they remember how disgusted
they feel with you when you’re nasty in here, rather than remembering that
there was anything mean (allegedly) done to you.
Jamal chapulta 2009-05-10 18:53:19
But what would be the fun of that?
I saw the look on my mom’s face. This b**** had assured me that if I
ever laid a hand on her, she’d call the cops, but when it actually
happened, she was powerless. Now I understand why my father would
occasionally assure me that he “can’t wait” for the next chance to hit me.
Jamal chapulta 2009-05-10 18:53:22
No. Violence is used to control. It’s how my parents controlled me.
And when I don’t post “pretty inflammatory and triggering things” I still get negative reactions.
I look good.
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Indigo moon ma 2009-05-10 18:53:31
You seem to have some pretty deep issues not the least of which is that you
are vewry likely a danger to those around you in real life. While this
group may be a harmless way to vent off some of the anger and hatred you
have, I think that with it you also need competent professional help and
you need it desperately. My suggestion would be that you seek professional
help immediately before you do something in real life that you will regret.
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Random user 2009-05-12 00:34:23
Having never been abused by my parents, I cannot honestly say I understand
your situation. However, the fact that you are here suggests you’re aware
of a problem in yourself. That’s good. This is my first day on this
list, and your messages caught my attention quickly.
I came to realize the depth and veracity of my depression last night. I
figure I’ve been this way at least since I was 10 (I’m 34 now). From your
messages, it seems you’re an adolescent in a real bad situation. I feel
for you. I had a much less violent adolescence, but I had then, and
increasingly have now, a sense of dispair.
I felt – feel – trapped in a world without joy. Everybody is out to get
me. I alternately feel intense rage and total dejection. I can’t
concentrate well, and I’m beginning to feel the onset of age, already. I
sometimes find in me a nearly uncontrollable urge to beat the s*** out of
my “victimizer of the day”. My problem, however, manifests more in a
sense of being inadequate in nearly everything, so I’m more sad and
dejected, rather than enraged and insensed.
You (and I) do need counselling. Do you really want to become your
parents? That’s what happens more often than not. Go lookup the
statistics on violence and abuse. Are you prepared to do to your children
what is being done to you? Hmm? Counselling is proven to help. Again,
I’ve not had any myself, so I’m merely espousing book knowledge. I’m
beginning my search for a counsellor sometime this week, I hope. If I can
manage to defeat my apathy, that is.
Jamal chapulta 2009-05-13 01:08:28
If “those around you” = my parents, then yeah, sure. Otherwise, the
population at large is pretty safe.
C’mon, why don’t you just admit it: you don’t even think I’m human. S’okay.
Teilhard has told me he doesn’t consider me human on numerous occasions,
and I’m sure all yer’ buddies think so, too.
Nah, I won’t regret anything.
Jamal chapulta 2009-05-13 01:08:31
Oh, so you haven’t grown to dislike me yet? Don’t worry, time will turn
you against me. Most of the regulars do their best to make people dislike me.
What made you realize you were so depressed?
F***, I really come off that poorly, do I? I’m 23.
It used ot actively be much worse. Now it’s just kind of something that
festers underneath everything in my life. It’s kind of like a scab, if I
stop picking at it, it’ll heal up faster. Of course, in this case the
scab is a couple of malicious bastards who don’t deserve for things to
just “heal” so easily.
It’s an empowering thing, despite popular opinion.
It IS a world without joy. At least, no inherent joy. People have to
work for joy, and it’s usually not worth it. Cruelty or indifference,
those are easy to find.
Go for it! Did wonders for me.
If I feel inadequate in nearly everything, it’s because everybody keeps
telling me I am … which is odd, because I’m not.
Counseling doesn’t work. Never have and never will. They’ll just give
you a big old container of pills and send you on your way.
Hah! I’ll never have children, of that much I can assure you. I know
most of those regulars who will be crawling out of the woodwork will
assure you of that, too.
IT DOES NOT HELP. If a person gets better they do it of their own
accord. The “counselor” offered little to no benefit.
Hmm … defeating apathy. Like, then you’d have to stop being apathetic
about apathy … or something. Seems weird.
Good luck to you, too.