sean

Since you mentioned my name, I will say, Greetings!", even though I don't
know who you are, either your real name or the name you appeared with on
ARE. I am as shocked as you are to look at myself and see the person who I
once was. I truly believe that we live many lives in a single incarnation. I
have witnessed many personas and relationships in this one, most of them
dysfunctional and toxic. I lived an illusion while under the impression that
I was living a life of certainty as a perfect channel for the mahanta and
the sugmad.

I am unable to relate at all to that persona at present. At this point, I am
certain of practically nothing, and have discarded about 90% of the
so-called truths that I took for granted in eckankar which I now have come
to the conclusion are all fairy tales. About the only thing I am fairly
certain of is that I AM, whatever that means.

As far as what I do, I won't say much other than that I live a relatively
quiet life struggling to make a living with an internet business. I am
slowly learning to relate to the human race in a natural way and stay away
from giving advice or my opinion about anything.

I will never again be a leader of any religion, or spiritual path, or
society. I believe in everything that Ford and HSC is doing, but my safety
is in staying out of the forefront of any more organizations. In a couple of
years, I hope to be fully retired and pretty much disappear and spend the
rest of my life in just learning how to BE.

Cheers!

Nathan